I used to blindly hate and despise you Madonna. I thought you were talentless trash. I thought you were a woman who'd merely slept her way into the spotlight and that pissed me off to no end.

I hated you until my former employer offer me a deal I could not resist - floor seats to see your Blond Ambition Tour at the LA Sports Arena. I went as a skeptic of your talent and work ethic and left two and half hours later in awe of your talent, work ethic, creativity and drive. Since that day, the day that Tom Selleck sat in front of me during the entire concert, I have admired you for what you are; a talented, hardworking, devoted, ever-changing, autodidact strong woman. From twelve rows back in the center section I could see you sing while dancing full out (I could also see when your were choosing to lip-sync in order to perform a difficult dance routine). I could see the beads of sweat rolling down your face. I could see that seconds after putting on a new costumer it was drenched in sweat just like the previous costume. I could see when you fumbled a line in your own song or missed a dance move and got pissed off at yourself and tried even harder. You never give less than 100% and I thoroughly appreciated how hard you worked to entertain me and every other attendees.

Since that day I've been a full-on fan. I've made a point to save money for every concert tour you do, for every CD you put out. Yes you say some ridiculous things at times and adopt some laughable personas, however I know that you know that what you are doing is comical and you are laughing harder than your detractor.

Madonna, I admire you. I wish I had your drive to be exactly what I want to be. Your drive to work my arse off physically to have the hardest strongest female body that can just go and go and go.

And most of all I wish that sometimes I could get up on stage and entertain people the way you've entertained me during your last 5 tours.

I cannot wait to see you in Oakland in November. I cannot wait to feel the positive energy of my fellow fans in the crowd. I cannot wait to see your usual social commentary remix video. Just like during Re-Invention, Confessions, Drowned World and others you're new found desire to express your political opinion makes me giddy.

I cannot wait to see and feel the thumping bass beat of this "Get Stupid" Remix.

Oh what to wear. What to wear? I'm going classy this time, not casual. Gray sequin diaphanous mini dress, great heel and perhaps a hot stylish floppy hat. You inspire me to try harder.

I'm so excited!